Daylight Savings

Light fled
I'm not prepared

I'm not saying any-

things fold

Laundry on my bed

Songs in my head

Ringing

There is no you

On my own

not alone

I bled

warp

 even when sounds are happening at extreme random

if there are enough of them happening

enough times

something like a cadence does emerge

there is a cadence of capitalism

a frantic cadence

a cliff of death

we all live in terror

there is no life

Musings

 Hating the word cadence

The person next door incessantly playing 

what can only be described as an oboe

I think multiple people are playing different oboes

I like it here. Tucked between organic music.

Sometimes another neighbor picks up a guitar, i pick up a guitar

I'm always singing and I'm sure they can hear me.

Talking to you, practicing my poems

Info Session - lyrics

Nodes in a tower
Far from the glittering city

Wrapped in a blanket of warm, wood
Cohorts clothed in abundant
pattern, like picnic cloths
a top a toy farmer would wear

Far
far from the earth far
Far from the dirt and mud
Far the sky
The grass and bugs
The flowers far, and berries far, and cows
Far and roads crumbling
'neath the barrel of tires roaring, rumbling
Far the tower, close together
Nodes
clothed in smooth tones, warm
where
A hand lain gently to face the other
where
no face and no hand at all

no face and no hand at all

the other where no face and no

the other where no face and no

no hand and no face at all

no hand and no face at all

Leeds (Aloud)

I was a collapsed barn
All you saw were the wisps of bent hay
Floating around my temples
signal flares for a pacified angel

My eyeballs turned 

patient in their sockets
that summer, sulking afternoon
While sentimental gossips poked them back ahead

Exacting straws, needled from firm dirt that lifting cracks
Shaggy roots that crumble

padded,

suffocating in the laboring sun
to possibly be drenched again and run into the river

Pointing and deliberate
The grasses wept
From another point of view,
it all looked soft

Crickets are another man's silence
The barn boards have old nails in them, so put your shoes on

This treasure is only plastic from the seventies
This emerald is only a wet stone

Some Days From The Summer Of 2017

I woke up at 3:48 to my telephone covertly downloading software updates to itself I was also in my own world overcome by doubts I felt myself at a fence at the farthest border of the the pen I used to play in The place where the garden stopped and the real mesh began I'm angry with my fingers and the way they and the software disagree And the way the words I try to emit are tangled and paused An intrusive rain is static at my window and seeing as it faces the back of the house, the rain is private and only mine I am not upset about the cracks in the screen I'm disappointed by myself 

I'm at a party full of people I recognize I think you might be here A person with a phone And a picture on the banquette downstairs Playing an important role i feel i was a web player come alive better than my damp fingers nothing on screen She asks questions in an open forum and sometimes i reply I admit I'm imitating something about a poster torn from a magazine melding with the wood and drywall Of your parents home what did you hope for tonight why did you come here I swallow my swords and pad them out instead This is it This is living This is the party 

I approached her not in the mood to cultivate already established relationships I wanted to say things, toss them against the imprecision of my own belonging I blended in with the couch without particularly wanting to That's why you noticed me 

You and your boyfriend like to have sex in the park by the river in that wholesome gay way Your life seems abundant with love even as you speak of your losses I speak of mine and they steal the abundance of our conversation Staring at me from your perch across the circle Without particularly wanting to The imprecision of not particularly wanting our connection begins

Bread

I am not an anarchist 

Fed lines, I met the welcome 

Lost at the airport, left at mourning 

Neighbors kneading now

Prints

are icons are falling as
personal memories rise.
rain, trembling in a container.
over doing nothing for the past.

we are new.
we are not sad, we are shells.
nothing counts.
the day is long and light.
curves around us, into
us, as us

curves slow, maybe
missed, may be
we recite ourselves.

up, palms grit on the old ground.

we don't press our faces down.

we convene (and leave)
It means nothing.

nothing counts

more than now 

z-index

I miss having enough ways with my body
Ways that come with days of spacing

Seconds

Decidedly not there

Deplorably numb

A space attunement estuary

I like

Setting off

Infinitely more than I like

Heading back

An underwater antelope

Faded routine

My unappreciated offering

I like

Giving out

More than I like

Giving up

Sharing

I stepped inside of you

To see myself

Instead, you may have 

Poured over my body

angles and shadows

orbs and blurs

Alone in the corner

Of your stoic apartment

Lost at the airport

Locked out

a paper on the ins and outs

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Prospect Park

Limiting belief:

I don't deserve love

Reframe:
Sometimes the sunlight is sharpest 

when colors are flat and dull

The pond and grass pierce my heart 

because they are all in green,

nothing standing out over the other 

and it makes me gasp

My breath goes out into it

the green-yellow

My skin the same

non-color as the pond

It's that light could be so different everyday

That this once has never been described

And never will be again

What I See

Justice

Is not something

you disagree with strongly

but

Anger is something you disagree with

Strongly but

Not bodily but

Habitually because

Of fear of loss

Of violence because

Of injustice

Done to you

Abolition

We are giving over our secrets
Our secrets that protect us

Handing out our morals
The morals that will save us

To avoid each other
We hail the secret saviors

Without us
Will whisper in our absence
Life is precious,
life is precious

Baby

Is your heart heavy?
I'm internal
Right now
I'm under the garden
Burrowed
Under the covers
Letting it all go

Baby
Is your mind racing?
I'm beside you
This time
Out in the open
Patient
Covered in quiet
Letting my love grow

Texas

Fighting with you
About feminism
On the cactus hill

You think it's a question
Of morals
It's not

Morality
Is a different arc

The sun is low
With scraggly branches
Constructs a golden path

On the brush
That is beautiful
That we can agree on

Contact

I want to pick the whole thing up
And throw it at the wall.
Like the carcass of an unhatched bird
Big enough to fit the bow of both my arms
Throw it at the wall

The South

I am
Plugged full of blood
As a little mollusk swims inside of you

Powder over everything
I am
Powder on my face

Wet beans
Rust where it shouldn't be

Bushwick Ave

Suzanne
And everything

Charlene
With diamonds

And purple
On the kitchen counter

The global air
Hits my lungs

Final Poem

Cancel my servers
Your hair is a mess
Your blankets are boring
The speakers are broken,
Are broken,
Are broken