Bushwick Ave

Suzanne
And everything

Charlene
With diamonds

And purple
On the kitchen counter

The global air
Hits my lungs

Final Poem

Cancel my servers
Your hair is a mess
Your blankets are boring
The speakers are broken,
Are broken,
Are broken

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Going Dark

When the apocalypse comes
I'll come out on top.

I'll know how to sit in time.

I won't be guilted into intuition.
I refuse to be guilty.

Times Sqaure

stadium lights make the night
sound different
in their cover
we are ablaze

we celebrate
shirk responsibility
toke up

standing outside in the rain is crying
from the outside

renewed in the marble mirror

makeup wiping heavy from your eyes

lips
gesture
strut


from up here
we are making the night
a night

a new year
calling out
for you! for you!

Paraphrasing E.M. Forster

It was a comrade.

Bending over the house,
strength and adventure
in its roots

But in its utmost fingers,
tenderness

And the girth
that a dozen men
could not have spanned

Became in the end evanescent
till pale bud clusters seemed to float
in the air

It was a comrade

House and tree transcended any similes of sex
she thought of them now
and was to think of them
On many a day and windy night

But to compare either
to man
to woman

Always dwarfed the vision

Yet they kept within the limits
Of the human

their message
not of eternity
but of hope
on this side of the grave

Some Days From The Summer Of 2017 (for Adny)

I woke up at 3:48 to my telephone covertly downloading software updates to itself I was also in my own world overcome by doubts I felt myself at a fence at the farthest border of the the pen I used to play in The place where the garden stopped and the real mesh began I'm angry with my fingers and the way they and the software disagree And the way the words I try to emit are tangled and paused An intrusive rain is static at my window and seeing as it faces the back of the house, the rain is private and only mine I am not upset about the cracks in the screen I'm disappointed by myself

I'm at a party full of people I recognize I think you might be here A person with a phone And a picture on the banquette downstairs Playing an important role i feel i was a web player come alive better than my damp fingers nothing on screen She asks questions in an open forum and sometimes i reply I admit I'm imitating something about a poster torn from a magazine melding with the wood and drywall Of your parents home what did you hope for tonight why did you come here I swallow my swords and pad them out instead This is it This is living This is the party

I approached her not in the mood to cultivate already established relationships I wanted to say things, toss them against the imprecision of my own belonging I blended in with the couch without particularly wanting to That's why you noticed me

You and your boyfriend like to have sex in the park by the river in that wholesome gay way Your life seems abundant with love even as you speak of your losses I speak of mine and they steal the abundance of our conversation Staring at me from your perch across the circle Without particularly wanting to I let our connection begin